Where we’ve ended up

I can’t believe this is where we’ve ended up.

After 9 long, wonderful, emotional, enriching and loving months, you ended it. 

Our first dates and kisses were magical and I happily thought and hoped, you would be my last first kiss. We got each other through lockdown after lockdown and our connection was like none other. We met in the middle of where we ended up and walked, we messaged every day and we called each other twice a week. 

With restrictions lifting, I wanted to spend more time with you. You wanted to spend more time with me. You wanted to grow together, forever. I was moving to be closer to you. 

But it was too much for you. I will never forget that phone call. “I’m so so sorry” but I have feelings for a friend. A friend you drunkenly kissed a week ago, whom you promised meant nothing to you. And that I meant everything.

You spent lockdown writing books – your dream. I am so sorry and so distraught I was your first draft.