Locked in day dreaming: Part 2

Still daydreaming about the wrong guy…

Before lockdown hit we had started drifting apart after a lifetime together. Neither of us had really admitted to ourselves that we had become stagnant or that we had any issues. However, when the restrictions hit, the thought of being trapped in the house together left me feeling suffocated. My feelings all came out one night and we both agreed that we needed to take a break and that we needed to reevaluate us.

Since then I have developed feelings for somebody else. He is everything I have been missing 

On a level I know he isn’t as good a guy as J is. Not as kind or as reliable but yet it is still him who has my entire consciousness 

Nearly 7 months on and the break has left nothing any clearer. I know I can’t live in this void forever. The safety net of my denial is going to suffocate us soon.