Dark

I started the first lockdown with you. For years you were my world and you hurt me every day. In all the times you cheated and I forgave, I could never forget. You broke me. 

I ended the last lockdown alone. 

I started the second lockdown with him. He built me back up and helped me recover. He is sweet and kind and we laugh at each other’s silly jokes. He moved in and we are spending every minute together. 

Last night it was dark when we were having sex. I couldn’t see his face. But in my mind I saw yours. 

I miss all the heartache you gave me.