A prayer

We met on a matrimonial site during lockdown. Matched on the 8th of April but started a proper conversation on the 10th. One month later, after constant messaging everyday, we met by the side of a road. He was in his car and I was standing outside. He had just found out that his mum has cancer the day before and I had a small gift for him and for her. We spoke for about half an hour and it truly was a great first proper conversation. After that, we continued to meet often in the park or at a local Starbucks drive thru. We spoke on the phone, messaged and video called a lot and truly began to share a lot with each other. In August, we arranged for a socially distanced lunch in the garden so our parents could meet but two weeks prior, his mum passed away and so that hasn’t happened yet. We continued our relationship despite our ups and downs and we worked through disagreements - we recognised that neither of us are perfect but the fact that we were adamant to keep working on it. We were so comfortable with each other and soon he told me he loved me. I didn’t say it back (I’ve never used those words before!) While this was happening, he was grieving and the grief became quite heavy so I suggested that he sees a grief counsellor. He’s been working on himself as have I and in September, I finally told him that I loved him! We saw each other as the One. We weren’t in a rush to get married but we started putting things into place to start to get the ball rolling. It’s been six months now. Yesterday, October 13th, he was told that he has a cancerous brain tumour, he’s been given 6-18 months with treatment and we are now at a standstill about how to move forward. He gave me a promise ring and a small engraved plate which said that he would ask God for me twice, once in this life and then again in heaven and it broke me. We spoke about how we would want to be married for the short time that we have left and what that might mean. He keeps telling me
that he doesn’t want me to go through what he went through, watching his mum pass away but I love him. He is the first man I have loved and I know that so many people go through their lives not knowing this feeling. We are lost and confused and this is as far as our story has come and I write this to ask for anyone out there to pray for us, especially for him, just a small prayer for him to be okay.