You asked me what I was scared of: this

I was loving lockdown, single life, living alone and rediscovering myself after 7 years in 2 different relationships. I didn’t really want to see anyone more than once or twice. But, from when we started voice clipping and that night you called me and we laughed for 3 hours, I couldn’t get you out of my head. I knew I should be careful. But the first night we spent together, I felt something I never had before, a magical connection. Your eyes captured me. I was yours. You could feel my fear. You asked me what I was scared of. This. One year since June 2020, a few ups and downs, and so so so many nights together, laughs, morning cuddles. And you just told me you think lockdown accelerated it. You still don’t want to label it. And now I have to be heartbroken yet again and wonder, will I ever meet someone that can see how wonderful am I? Will I ever get married? Maybe the couple life is just not meant for me. I’ll miss you more than I would like to admit. I love you.