‘I don’t want a girlfriend’

I’d never really stopped thinking about you since we dated. You slid into my DM’s right at the end of lockdown when I’d gotten over the fact we were never going to get in touch again. We met and instantly from their it was a nice familiarity. It was so nice to be spending time with you, older and I thought wiser. ‘I don’t want a girlfriend’ is what you said - I respected that. You slept with your ex. I couldn’t say anything could I because you “didn’t want a girlfriend”. You reintroduced me to your friends, asked me to go on holiday with you. We spent countless nights staying up talking to the early hours. I ask you out for dinner and you said ‘I don’t want a girlfriend’. Your mixed messages drove me crazy. I snap. You go silent, you unfollow me from IG. Older and wiser? You’re still a child and I stupidly fell for you again. I feel like a fool, used by you. I should of known better - “leopards don’t change their spots” as you once said to me.